Unable to learn

I get great ideas which I forget to write down. Trouble is I think they are so profound that I'll be unlikely to forget what they are and that i'll be able to hold the thoughts until  I have a chance to write them somewhere - of course I do forget. I never learn though - I never think: okay, I'll forget this so I'll not kid myself that this time I wont. I could carry some paper and a pen, or a recorder...and sometimes I remember to - but I need batteries for the recorder and I carry far too much in my bag to find my note pad and pen, especially in the middle of Sainsburys . So far this week, two good ideas have vaporised and become nothing more than mind steam.

Talking about about ideas...have you ever found that if people have an idea of you, it will stick no matter what you do? Worse, what if your idea of yourself is one big illusion and the reality is, you fit more into those people's idea of you, than you do your own?

Self work is not easy and although I have done plenty of it, for over 20 years - its only after reading Guy Finley's book "The Secret of Letting Go" that I am truly beginning to see the reality of myself and of other's too. Just by reading Guy's books, I can feel something changing inside of me...as though a seed is beginning to grow and the weeds are starting to wilt. Its a bit of a journey and not always pleasant...but I would urge anyone who wants to feel at peace with life, to read his books.

You may want to begin with Eckhart Tolle's book "The Power of Now" and perhaps watch a few of his you tube recordings. I continue to learn and hope I can change some things I now know about myself...things that are not bad, but perhaps do not serve me well.

Remember - things are not always what they seem. For example I woke up one day, late into summer to see the below on my heather - it seemed like mist. Later I went out to take a closer look and found no mist - what I saw was a series of intricate webs spun by a small brown spider. Here is a picture showing my first impression and below this picture is a close up of the webs:

Close up of the webs:

NOW

With the past, I have nothing to do; nor with the future.  I live now.  

Ralph Waldo Emerson

Be positive

Think about the sunshine, through the rain. 

If that doesn't work, 

then learn to love the rain.

JAS

I've been looking for a place to think and write. I've had a few blogs and start out really well, but then become distracted as I try to keep up with other bloggers. This time, I hope I can use this space to put words to thoughts. To create and to express.

I enjoy writing and although I have had a few short stories published, I have never written that Novel I have inside my heart. I wonder if I am too old now...but then, the fire is still burning, so until it is gone out, I should try hard to make a dream come true. I hope I may if I lend my thoughts to a blog and hope not to be plagerized when I do. I would be over the moon however, if someone, somewhere, wanted to quote anything I write...perhaps though, that has to remain a fantasy.

Welcome to my Place With a Heart.

Snippits 

Transfered from another older blog:

Brave to be Brave

When life seems frightening … when just being you seems fearsome, how do you manage?

I know people who wake up in the morning and see the rest of the day as something to battle their way through: Panic attacks, anxiety, depression, OCD, fear, health anxiety, phobias and the possible accompanying physical symptoms. And…these people can wrestle with the day and very often the night over and over again.

It’s not uncommon for some non sufferers to criticise the mental and even physical difficulties of others, perhaps labelling them weak. But they are not weak; they are heroes. Despite the amount of mental anguish and pain they live with every waking moment – they fight on bravely. They tolerate the misery like valiant soldiers.

It’s often hard to face another day of dreadfulness and it takes energy to find that braveness inside and draw on it – but draw on it they do.

So, if you know someone who is struggling – recharge them with your kindness and patience and tell them how brave to be brave they are. X

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Jen

Yesterday is but today's memory,
and tomorrow is today's dream


Khalil Gibran